During an appearance on “Behind the Music”, aired on Wednesday, on VH1, R&B star Brandy opens up about an ED (eating disorder) that took away all the glamour a music star can enjoy. While talking about her new album, “Two Eleven”, the Grammy winner revealed that her obsession with staying thin was more important than the showbiz glory.

Brandy opens up about ED and how she overcame it“I wanted to be so thin”, Brandy recalls about her life in the late ‘90s. At the times she was on the peak of her career, winning a Grammy for the hit “The Boy Is Mine”, featuring Monica. Despite the fame, the fans and all the glam that comes with it, Brandy, now 33, remembers that staying thin was her “main thing”.” So I started not taking care of myself — not eating properly, not eating at all, diet pills, regurgitating, and all of these things that girls do”.

Brandy, who is now the mother of a 9-year-old, says that being the hottest star is just façade. “I’m here to tell you I was making so much money — I was omnipresent — and I was the unhappiest teenager probably in the world.” She reveals that she had lost 20 pounds (from 125 to 105 pounds) and, at the time, she was weighing herself every five minutes. People were telling her she looked great, so that caused  an inner conflict. She once told Oprah: “I felt good about my outward appearance, but my insides were hell.”

It was the day that she was rushed to the hospital, severely dehydrated, with her mother all worried by her side, that she realized things need to change. Brandy calls the event a “spiritual breakthrough”. “I realized it’s my responsibility to take care of myself, because nobody else will. And I can’t depend on … anybody else to be responsible for me. And when I take care of me, everything else will fall into place.”